It’s so much easier to talk big as apposed to act big.
I’m sure we’ve all experienced moments where we shared with others our optimistic plans only to ask ourselves, “What have I gotten myself into?” when it’s time for the rubber to hit the road.
Back in 2012, I was optimistic about starting graduate studies in theology. In the beginning, I had the choice between doing a placement and writing a 200-page thesis. Since I enjoy reading and writing, I convinced myself that writing a thesis is an opportunity to overcome a major challenge.
I had a “flawless” plan in place. I chose the topic, mapped out each chapter and started digging for primary sources. Of course, things didn’t pan out exactly as I planned.
I was fortunate to get a full time as a youth minister before finishing my degree. This meant that for an entire year I would go to work then come home and continue writing and reading. After months of intense work, I proudly submitted my first draft.
I assumed that I submitted a masterclass in academic writing (When I look back now, I’m embarrassed to read it, even to myself). Therefore, when my draft was returned to me, I nearly fell on my face. I was asked to rewrite entire chapters.
I did end up successfully completing my thesis, but the writing experience was not what I expected.
“I will do anything…-ish for Jesus…”
In today’s gospel (John 13:21-38) Jesus takes the first step to his death by revealing that Judas is going to hand him over the authorities.
Once Judas leaves the scene, Jesus tells the remaining apostles that where he is going they cannot follow. The apostles, especially Peter, have a hard time understanding that Jesus is referring to his death, resurrection and ascension into Heaven.
Enthusiastic about following Jesus, Peter says, “Master, why can I not follow you now? I will lay down my life for you.”
Jesus responds, “Will you lay down your life for me? Amen, amen, I say to you, the cock will not crow before you deny me three times.”
Jesus is of course referring to Peter’s triple denial during the scourging at the pillar. What Peter didn’t know was that Jesus would one day take him up on his words.
How to handle getting what you asked for?
The third Pope, St. Clement of Rome, wrote in 96 AD in his Letter to the Corinthians of Peter’s own crucifixion in Roman in the place that today we recognize as St. Peter’s Basilica. Peter’s remains can be found in a tomb underneath the church to this very day.
Peter did get what he was asking for. Jesus gave him the opportunity to lay down his life in a manner that was like his own.
I have played out several scenarios in my head when I would have to give my life for my family or Jesus.
It’s easy to say to my wife, children and God, “I will do anything for you”; I just pray for the grace that I will be able to do “anything” when I am faced with the unexpected.
At this time, I know God is preparing me by to face “anything” by giving me the opportunities to pass smaller tests. For example, “anything” may not include taking a bullet, but it involves daily prayer, washing the dishes and changing smelly diapers.
If we can’t follow Jesus in the small things; how can we expect to follow him in the big things?
Let us pray,
Lord Jesus, We thank you for the challenges that you place before us. Help us to grow in virtue by overcoming them. Prepare our minds and soul to follow in your step, especially in the smaller and more tedious challenges in our lives. We also ask that you continue to be present in the lives of those suffering from illness and the healthcare professionals who tirelessly work in their service. Amen. St. Peter….Pray for us.
